Honestly it was either this, a podcast, or a youtube channel. All the other ideas seemed like a lot of work, but maybe I might come back to the YouTube idea soon. I'm starting this blog because honestly I'm feeling so lonely, and I know others out there are too. I'm literally in my college's food court sitting by myself while everyone else is sitting in groups. In high school it was quite the opposite. I would be sitting in a group. In fact, I was always surrounded by people.

A year ago if you had asked me where I was going to college I would have said, "Probably UCD or UCSB. UCD for sure." I mean how could I have not gotten into Davis, right? Right, I got rejected. Not only from Davis, but every single university I applied to besides Cal Poly Pomona. Now that's a laugh out loud situation. I decided not to go to CPP because honestly it didn't seem like the right fit for me. Thus, community college.

I was a mediocre student with a lot of extracurriculars, rejection should have been expected. Although deep down I anticipated this splurge of bad news, it didn't stop me from becoming bitter and sad. I was battling depression in high school and this was my all time low. The amount of times I have cried from March to August is insane. After crying that much I became numb. My sadness comes in three stages. The shock, numbness, and then going back to normal. By going back to normal, I mean going into full kickass mood. The thing I love and hate about myself is I need something to pull me down to work harder than ever. Unfortunately there was nothing in high school that forced me to work as hard as I am right now. Now that I am attending community college, I wanna get out of here. It's only the second week and I know it takes time to make friends and get used to it, but it's exactly like high school here. The only exception is that now I don't belong to any cliques anymore.

The purpose of this blog is to connect with other community college students with the goal of transferring within a few years. I'm a biology major and I'm determined to transfer in two years. I want to go to university and feel secure, because right now I'm not. Here I will post all the information I find along with my experiences.